blue girl bites back

mirror

what the hell is self control

Why sometimes it becomes a foreign word

I thought I can make things right

But suddenly It brings me fright

Do you find it odd

that you were not as strong as you once thought?

You knew yourself more than anyone else?

But no.

You act the opposite.

Self control and your self

Suddenly, you never knew that

Suddenly, you never knew what you see in the mirror

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other word for LOATHE

there are people you must hate

in order to love yourself

Even if they beg for mercy or forgiveness

in order to protect yourself,

for they might do it again, second time in a row

So whats the use of forgiveness? (cut)

Maybe, it’s not wrong to hate

but it is wrong to live in misery

If that hate eats you whole, it affects yourself, it brings you suffering

it is misery.

But what happen to forgiveness?

Maybe not now, maybe not now.

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Love is a long gamble

Love is pain

Love is gain

Love can be gain with pain

Love is pain with no gain

Love is gaining pain

Pain is gain is love

Gain is love and pain

Winner takes all,

Lottery

Poker

BUnot bunutan

Sayang barya, pera salapi

cause love

is a gamble

Sayang ang effort, at pagmamahal

bcoz love is a gamble

// If love is a gamble, Gambling is bad, love is bad?//

No! illegal GAMBling is bad, illegal love is bad

So when is love ILLEGAL?

alam mu na di ba?

KAbit, may asawa

when is gambling legal?

lotto,  Pagcor

its just the same, its hard to win

its Bleak

(= . -)

un walang kwentang logic.

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No.

I dont know.

I dont have the answers.

I just want to pray.

I want to do everything. Kht maging katulong nya.

ampota. punyeta. putangina.

bumabalik nanaman sa dating problema.

I have to do something that i have never done before.

In order to break this circle.

I think all I can do is wait.

Have patience.

Pray, act, believe.

Do everything I can to make things right.

hAve faith, ignore this sad feeling.

Because faith is more than a feeling.

I will have faith that everything will be allright once again.

Good night, adieu

As I go to places. I secretly search for the meaning of “Real beauty.”

I am an artist, My business is to CREATE art. And so they say, art is something that pleases the senses. Art is real beauty.

“Art gives us a way to be creative and express ourselves.”

But then, I want the elements of my art to be really beautiful. Not something always about me. When I go painting some figures, unconciously, some artist drew it like themselves. Even if copying other people, they make a similarity with what they drawn. For example, i draw this leg, I did not pay too much attention to it. So I unconciously made it sexy juts like my leg. (lol joke, if vice versa, I unconciously made it unappealing just like my leg) Hope you got my point, i dont want to elaborate on this one.

As I go to different places and meet different people. I can point out which one has real beauty or which one is just a beauty on the surface.

There are places that stink but then, you can see people there have smiles on their faces.

There are places that looks so extravagant but is empty on lonely, people dont mingle, they stay inside on their own.

THere are people that looks perfectly beautiful but they think worse of other people, they like to make fun out of them.

There are people that looks so ugly but then has light heart which can make them fly.

There are ugly people who are ugly in the insides too but it is up to you if you want to help them out. 

 As I can say, looking back unto me, in the mirror. I’m not really that pretty. I may look good in some angles. Wished, that i am really a stunner//* As I walk along, I hear some people talk behind my back that I look like ai ai. (lol atleast a celebrity lol) I just ignore, because I believe that Life is more that what you see in your eyes. Our BODY is not only made up of EYES, eyes, EYES!  Baka GUsto mo MAGING ISANG NAGLALAKAD NA MATA? lol. joke. We have or brain, para mangilatis kung anong claseng tao tlga yan. Like that right? ehem. defensive ako? lol. Bt then, di naman ako naaasar kung panget ako minsan eh. Di naman ako nagseselos if ever na may tao na nagsasabi “waw ang ganda nya blahblahblah” I could say yeah she’s a beautiful too… Pero peropero… NAKAKAINIS ang mga lalake na, nagsasabi na, “WAW ganda ng chiks, sarap ikama blahblah” and a lot of perverted stuffs. =.= bastus haha. ANd noted, yung nagsasabi nun sakin, kala mo gwapong guy, di naman nya marireach ang kagandahan nun lol.

Pero I’m glad im not that pretty, sure hit pag nagkarelationship ako, they will really see right through me kc I’m “MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE” (san yan? 1, 2, 3 …? transformers!)

Yeah right I found someone. He says he loves me daw. Well okay I’m happy Kht ano pa ako lab daw nya aku ahihi. saya no. teka bat nagtatagalog na ako haha. asan na english ability ko lol.

Well, everyone of us is a piece of art.

Kht mukang tae, mukang ****, mukang unggoy, mukang halfmoon pa yan and all that stuffs. MAy sarisariling STYLE eh!

haha.

Love what you are, Love yourself, so that others will learn to love you. Its the same as respect. ayt?

quoted: Aanhin pa ang pretty face kung di ka pinapansin?

Beauty is in the high of the beholder

Kung gwapo ka para sa kanila, sa akin di ka gwapo kc di mo ako pinapansin

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Well i admit sometimes im insecure, but i dont get stuck to that feeling, i reason out just to not stay insecure, right? Coz the truth sets you free.

 

Well I also forgot, there are some people na mapangasar. They like to see, if anong claseng tao ka. aun un. If you are madaling maasar or just a good person. Or some of them, ayaw nila mabully kaya they become the bully itself. LOL. kaya i can say to them na:  

Shit happens. But shit does not happen to you coz ur the shit itself.

 

lol. wala naman ako kaaway, nageexplain lng haha.

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Thanks for readin’ i hope ya got something from my rant, my findings, my feelings….

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God bless