juz writing, typing
December 16, 2008
It hurts, everything of me is not enough for them. They cant see my real beauty. BUt how will my life goes? I dont really know at all. Am i trying too hard or everythings not enough? Why does I feewl that people have the different level. WHy cant i reach the same level? I’ll do what it takes, fight monsters, upgrade my weapons, use healing items and go with the party just to reach their level. But why can’t It be as easy as that? In real life inorder to reach them, I need to change my personality (introvert to a social butterfly), change my physical appearance (vicky belos?), upgrade my mind (have some wits). SO how will i do it? I dont know… Efforts, efforts again. I feel like i’m trying so hard. Damn. But yeah i know the answers to my questions. I Just can’t seem to be okay. I’m just like putting my feelings here since i dont want to disturb a lot of people with my insecurities.
I will be an optimist and pray at the same time rather than be a pessimist and pray cause it will not sound good to God. 
ciao…]
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