blue girl bites back

here I am again.having episodes.tired,lonely,restless… I have dreams but i feels so uninspired. WHy do i feel this way?

First you have to know the problem:
The problem is… I have not much social life. (i know its sucks so much) I dont know how to make mine alive and kicking… (such a loser)

I’m afraid that I have loosen my interest to mingle with other people again if I was this stuck so much at home… I’m becoming the speechless girl again (highschool years) But i’m mature enough to not repeat the same mistakes as before.

SO i resolve my problems with: making list to make me happy!

Okay these are the things that could make me happy:  (not in chronological order)

1. a song entitled: dream by priscilla ahn

2. Thoughts of my restaurant to put up

3. being a successful advertiser/ graphic artist

4. THoughts of hanging out wih my friends (because they’re really busy now (job) and i am still studying)

5. Having a best true boyfriend {or making him come back for real and make me his true girlfriend for the first time even not on his full time…(impossible)}

6. hobbies

7.God

8. selling my comics - actually i have a lot of stories in my head…
Thinking that each one of them will be a big hit movie! woah!!!

9. selling paintings (but im not that good in painting ill do my best)

10. money for my restaurant

11. i want to be successful so that my parents will be proud of me… (my first priority)

12. Becoming the better person (hey not bitter!)

13. Friends! hope they’ll help me reach my dreams

14. People, contacts, to be successful/

Whoah! I feel so relieved. I really love typing down all these stress. this takes me away from being a mess!

okay so long….

I hope that I will always be cheery again!

Love lots!

— how can i achieve my dreams?