blue girl bites back

Everyone is going to graduate and I’m the only girl in the class that will repeat some subjects. This makes me sick. Well I know it serves me right after all the mess I’ve done. I’m to blame, well I’m not that person who’ll deny it anymore. It’s true.
I’ll embrace myself even with broken arms. I can, i can do it.

    Well my <3seems to spin an infinite loop. I’m all left out.
Like a geek staying infront of the computer all day. Practicing some lame layouts and trying hard to make innovative designs. That’s the least i can do. To make myself better and someday i hope i can stand on my own and then help others.

      I know I’m missing a lot of things. I admit it, i’m not thoughtful about others. But it seems that when i think of things, my hunch is not doing right. Well hell, i need to read a lot of things, widen my knowledge and look for a lot of informations. Yeah, information is everywhere, little things can be big, big things can be little things. Like my rotten first love keeps on sayin’.  He values "intelligence" so much since we were highschool classmates. Well enough about him. It’s hopeless and unreasonable anymore to think of him.

Well there are lot of things that can make me sad right now:

1. I’m not yet graduating
2. I think its hard to fish true friends.
3. I don’t know what will happen in my fifth year.
4. I’m not yet  a good artist because all of my artworks are unfinished… (ningas cogon ata ako)
5.  I’m envious of a lot of people
6. I think that I always loose myself and forgot about the "things i need to do"
7. It’s kinda lonely in the house
8. i have no money
9. My slr camera was not yet given back to me by my ex.
10. I have no cellphone

Well that’s all, so what should i do to make things right?

1. Think positive
2. Trust in divine providence
3. Pray
4. find a job
5. Practice, practice, practice and THINK hard. (think hard it works dont say that your brain’s a bean)
6. contact your friends on friendster
7. friends take time. Believe that what you are is what you get. Like birds of the same feather, flock together. (er? feather duster?)
8. Envy is a sin so don’t you do it. think positive
9. Just get the camera, (hope i could get it T_T) damn he’s a bitch.
10. Write everything about "the things to do" Be organized you "burara" haha.

That’s it. every problem has a solution. And Happiness is a responsibility.

                                  Goodnight and thank you for reading.

the manga imadoki (by watase yuu, a manga like hanayori dango but with lotsa moral values express using flowers! Tampopo-chan!) really catches my heart.

goddamn. im back to the anime beat, but i guess its the same as my heart beat. haha.
I want to make my own manga and be a mangaka.

I hope i can make one! kht 29 chapters lng at sa love comedy genre lng muna.

ayun. basta. ciao!– pagpapatuloy ko ang ultimate dream ko: to be a manga artist at maging great story writer

BGM: the first shop of coffee prince.

Goodnyts/ lotsa energy and happiness.

—-IM CHEERY AGAIN!

    "In a blink of an eye death steals your life."

   Goddamn these issues that I’ve been heard lately. My past mother’s relative, my beautiful auntie have a stage four cancer in sinusitis and i am really affected. My tita’s husband has a cancer in lungs too… My grandfather in my mother’s side has to undergo a kidney operation. Oh, this is so awful, what has been happening lately? And, here i go experiencing some internal back pains. Yeah, i was diagnose with U.T.I. I have taken antibiotics but i wonder if it was already cured? SHit, sometimes like hell the pain remains.

    Is this a form of karma? No, maybe a will of God? Or just plain normal to make things better. I know, pessimism is really bad, so like what i’ve learned in my thesis, let me utter, "bahala na" and go on with my life. You may expect for he worst but hope for the  best.

    The Filipino has the shining courage. I know with everything that happens in their life they can still smile. After all, sadness and lots of emo-ness, will just make things worst. Like i wonder, does the belief of pessimistic people die easily a fact? I bet it is. So here’s my plan, i’ll go on with a smile. Eat a lot of veggies, original fruit juices, green teas and go to bed early.

    Life surely has a lot of surprises. Positively or Negative, i know everything will be fine because i believe in God’s Providence.

See ya.